Emo Baby

Well well, lets start with saturday. I was doing duty, reading through my hotmail, and in came an email from Aileen. When I read it, I was a little surprised, but hey, its a really sweet effort there. =) So well, since emo baby is a compliment, I cant refuse it can I? From now on, whoever taunts me with that name, I'll make him suffer. I'm making emo baby my name. =) hahaha. Well, lets justify that name with an emo outburst (sounds gay..)!! woooooh...here goes.

Happy
because I am totally feeling what Aileen feels. Cell group is something I look forward to every friday. It has changed my life completely. In the past I thought I could never join a cell group because I enjoyed my privacy and I didn't believe I could ever find friends who could always be there for me. But I took a chance with Kairos and I've never looked back. Now I know I've got people watching my back no matter what. I feel much stronger than before, and people like enlin, joel, kok, hafiz and dayah reinforces that strength. =) I thank God for these people.

Torn
because Aloy is in deep shit, and I've lied to him. I'm really at my wits end. I see him as my buddy, but I refused to loan him cash, cos I'm not gonna be his unofficial money lender. He really needs it, but I've lied to him about my mom holding on to my atm card..blah blah blah..argh...i broke my golden rule this time. I'm mind fucked again. Either you help the poor soul all the way, or dont help at all. I'm currently in the middle, and the middle always gets fucked. I'll pray for you buddy, I'm sorry. I really don't know what to do. Just hang on ok?

Anger
because I'm being utilised as handyman again. My boss says its because I do good shit, so I get picked again to be big boss secretary. My 2nd boss says its because big boss loves my shit. Satoshi says I've got shit luck. I say its because theres one big fat lump of shitlard sitting in that chair not doing what shes supposed to do, and that is be a secretary. I'm close to my breaking point now. Push one more shit to me and I'll give you a dose of sweet, gentlemanly, sugar coated meaness.

Happy or sad?!?!?!
because after having a good talk with francisco, I realised that I had a miscommunication with K bout his mom. His mom is actually having stage 2 cancer, not terminal. I guess the word "advanced stages" + a sad face can give you an impression death is near. Thats happy. But stage2 cancer, according to francisco, though can be treated, has higher chances of a relapse (fyi, francisco is not a qualified doctor or nurse and I suppose he has no idea what hes talking about. I agree with him only because logically speaking, come on lah, if you treat it at the beginning, its safer and better rite). Thats sad. His family is quite separated, and he cant trust his elder siblings to take care of his mom. Thats sadder. Lets pray for him too shall we?

To end off, I saw this personal msg on yok's MSN today. (yok is a weird dude I knew in training. He was totally capable of doing those wtf things. And I mean really wtf things. Like having 5 pieces of white crocodile underwear with dried yellow stains in da area where ur dick is supposed to be resting. One for each day of the week. And he walks ard in those things.) Well, it says "You may think the cat is stupid, but the cat is very very good at being a cat." CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WATAFUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?? The following conversation takes place between me and yok, with the brackets being my actual thoughts.

emo baby says:
yo
emo baby says:
whats with ur personal msg man [just wads wrong with you]
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
heyz
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
hmm?
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
the cat thing?
emo baby says:
yeah [duh. what else seems wrong with you]
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
hahaa
emo baby says:
i thought it peculiar [i thought it damn bloody peculiar]
emo baby says:
any particular reason?
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
put it in another way... a person may be lousy at certain things.. but hes definitely very very good at being himself
emo baby says:
wah [wah, thats some serious bullshit]
emo baby says:
thats damn deep man [i'm bloody impressed with the way he twisted the whole damn sentence to make it sound like enlightenment. thats class people. pure shit class.]
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
hahaha
emo baby says:
i spent 15mins trying to decipher what it meant..but i couldnt read into it till you told me [pls dont tell me you just believed wad i said]
= | ......Appreciation.... Sincerity says:
hahahaa
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makes sense ya?
emo baby says:
maybe you shd refine it to dispel confusion[i meant pls do me a favour and kill urself. =)]

Wow, I'm actually quite evil. Wow, I wrote so much. Time to snooze. Nite people.