Why

Today, during the army half marathon, while I was walking on the route at east coast park, I turned to the left to look at my surroundings as usual. I did not expect it, its as if God played a cruel joke on me. I saw you. I saw you running with 2 of your friends. It was only for a moment, but I am sure it was you. Its been 3 years since I saw your face, I kept asking God many questions. Why am I so sure? Because everytime I see your face, my heart sinks, consumed by pain for that very moment. You're the only human being in my life thats capable of that. I've wrote all these years, just hoping you could at least acknowledge the receipt of my letters or gifts. I had no news, no word. Why must you do this to me? I mean no harm. I'm sorry about my actions in the past. I know I deserve it. I know your reasons for avoiding me during those years. I would have done the same. But I have no evil intention now. I mean well. Am I too late? I have no one to blame but myself. My whole life, those actions I carried out were my greatest regrets. They caused me the greatest pain.

I hope you're doing fine, I hope you're happy. I wish you the very best. Please take care of yourself. God bless you and guide you.