angsty

Sometimes i wonder, why some people struggle with their lives till the day they die, and only then they find the solution. A tad too late eh.

I spent just a moment reflecting on my darker moments in my younger years. I must say I enjoyed those dark moments, moments like depression, because if I didn't, I wouldn't have spent so much bloody time bathing in them. But hey, enjoyments like this always last. Its like sex with the devil. I love you, you love me, lets mate to prove it. After all that "ooohhhs..aaahhhhhss..give it to me baby.." .... Oops. No condom. no menses for months. vomitting. the tummy looks rounder. baby. All hell breaks loose. all that "oooohhhs and aahhhhsss" have become "fuck it i wanna die." too late. you sleep with the devil and now you bear his child. Then you feed it and nurture it. And when it grows old enough, it'll kill you. All because you slept with the fucking devil.