Redemption

Things are getting crazier as days go by. Closer to leaving, yet it dawned on me that I am not ready for life again. Studies, future, very much undecided. Todays sermon was about generosity, giving cheerfully. My book topic was about doing everything for the glory of God. I found it hard to swallow. My current workplace? For the glory of God? Trying to work for the glory of God in a place where people play god? Goodness.

Couple of days back, I caught CSI Miami on TV. In the end of it was a scene I deemed priceless and beautiful, though most might not. Horacio, always portrayed as cool, shot a gangster to death. He went over to the body, brushed the wound with his fingers, and spreaded the blood over his fingers as if to make sure it was real. Then the next scene shows him in a catholic church, down on a knee, looking at the crucified Jesus as if for a ray of hope. He proceeds to the confession box, where he looks in guilt at his bloodied fingers, eyes craving for forgiveness. Mr Cool, is human after all.

I spent some time talking to Alan yesterday night. It turns out, his parents are living separately, he lives with his mom and older sis. His mom has been in and out of hospital lately, and refuses to tell him the reason. It doesnt help that hes tied down either. I told him if he had brought the matter up to me or other superiors earlier, efforts could be made for him to spend more time at home with his mom. I asked him what were his plans after ord, he said to work, earn money and take his mom on a holiday. So heartwarming yea? Not many people would do that. I am so privileged and blessed, I am ashamed of myself.

So many things are happening now..need to take things one step at a time, and plan with a clear head what I have and need to do. God help me. God help and bless those who need Him.