Cold

So much stuff I need to settle this week. Been real busy, and every day i spend in there is like shit. I am becoming more and more disgusted, because as 1 person does nothing yet claims credit for all the successes, the other puts on a false front, assuring me everything is dealt with. I don't which is more sick. I'll take a shotgun, and pump their bodies full of lead. But i think i hate the lady more, so she dies first. :) I need to get out fast.

Dad asked me where i wanted to study. I really don't know. I don't know where to start now. My priorities are mixed up, Dad is making it worse. Finances are ok, but poor based on what I targeted.

I haven't prayed for long. I am going nowhere. Not that its a problem, its not foreign to me. Just that this time, I'm at the crossroads. I can't wait too long. I must advance. I am too immature for my workplace. I do not belong there. What am I gonna do then? I'm pissed, frustrated, though I don't show it. Do not test my patience human.

So open up your morning light
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the love in every eye
- Paula Cole , "I don't wanna wait" -